Is love the same?
This senseless argument in vain
Erodes my sense of shame
Who's to blame?
Thank you, Pain!
[Thank You Pain - The Agonist]
It's been so long since I've been like this. There are just times where I feel hopeless and miserable and I don't know why. And stress from things that happen just catch up to me and... I just break down. I don't mean to. It's not like I want to, but there are just days where I feel like I'm doing nothing, that I really shouldn't be where I am, or where I feel like I can't handle what's going on.
I don't mean to sound depressed or anything, but yeah, there are times that I feel that way. As much as I don't want to, I do. And it really does suck.
I feel like I'm really sucking with words right now. Tavo says I have a way with words, but... they're just words. They only have the meaning we give them. What value do they have? What will they solve? Even the most beautiful poem won't stop war, and the most amazingly well-wrotten song won't stop pollution.
Sure they help people see the same way, but in the end nobody does anything about it anyways.
But I digress.
I'm just really bummed with what's been going on. I want people gone, I want to hit people, I want to scream at them, I want to cry. It's all just so damn stressing!
And being left alone, being the only one there to pick up the pieces and hold things together... I'm really not that strong. I can't take care of the feelings of someone else on my own. I just... can't. I'm not the right person for that. I'm just not strong enough to help people when something's wrong.
I've tried helping, but it just seems that things have just gotten progressively worse.
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