There's Something That I Can't Quite Explain...

I'm so in love with you, you never take that away.

And if I've said it a hundred times before

Expect a thousand more~ <3

[Calling You - Blue October]

"I thought that the world had lost its sway, then I fell in love with you, and you took that away. You take away the old, show me the new, and I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you.

So while I'm on this phone, 100 miles from home, I'll take the words you gave and send them back to you~" <3

Goshies, I just had to continue the lines to that song. I really love that song, and I blame Rhianne for making me give Blue October a try in the first place. I should probably download moar of their music.

Anywho, not much is going on. I've been really bored lately, doing nothing, which is why I'm actually playing with my blog.

Well, apparently Rhianne declared me as her wife, even though the both of us have boyfriends. But I guess it's fine since Vivian still clings to Amanda, which makes me feel like I'm slowly becoming less and less important. She probably feels the same way, since I spend so much time with Tavo and cling to him and obsess over him so much. She might feel like he's taking her place. But at the same time, it's like, "Dude, he's my boyfriend, of course he's going to matter to me."

I guess the whole "Sisters before misters" thing really matters when the two aren't so competitive. Vivian seems to be getting annoyed by every single tiny mention or insenuation of Tavo, which leads my mother to believe something kind of odd. And Tavo doesn't really get upset. He's very understanding of the fact that even though he thinks she's a judgemental prude, that she's still my best friend, and he's still my boyfriend, and neither of those facts will be changing any time soon.

He says he thinks Rhianne sounds cool, and that she seems mature for her age, too, so I guess you're in the clear, Rhianne. xD He said he likes her better than Vivian, because he thinks she's more understanding, and he knows she's not judgemental at all. :/

Damn you for not being able to be an irl friend, Rhianne. D: DAMN YOU.

Also, lately, we've been on a Caps Lock spree, and if you follow her blog, you can see her screenshot of our stupid chat.

I think our conversations get stupider and stupider as time goes by.

I don't think there's much else to say.

I wish I had some sort of snappy saying or something to end with, or else my blog post will end blandly and it'll kill the whole thing.

So... uh..

Bye. ._.

With The Venomous Kiss You Gave Me I'm Killing Loneliness

"With the warmth of your arms you saved me.
Oh, I'm killing loneliness with you...
Killing loneliness that turned my heart into a tomb~"

[Killing Loneliness - HIM]

God, I never ever update this thing. It always just kinda slips past my mind. I always think I'm forgetting something, but then I just kinda shrug it off. Not only that, but I spent all my time with Tavo anyways, and so it' not like there's much to blog about. It'd get boring to say the same thing over and over and over.

I'm pretty upset today, since today's our third month (yesz, I'm that lame. Sue me), yet I can't even see him, even if just for a single minute. It's such a pain in the ass. He got yesterday off, but I couldn't see him, and he gets tomorrow off but I doubt I'd be able to see him, and yet he works today, on the day that matters.

His manager just lives to piss him off, huh?

So I'm pretty doan and upset, since I haven't seen him in a few days, and I'm so used to seeing him every single day. Not nly that, but his phone's disconnected, so I have to go forever without texting him or speaking to him at all, until he finally cals like at 11:30 at night or something. And then he has to go to bed a little early (early for us is like... 1.) because he has work the next day.

Look at me, I sound like a whiney teenager. But it's just that I'm so used to him, and so attatched that it's hars to go without him. Not only that, but in two months' time, he'll have been my longest relationship. Which doesn't say much since I've only had one relationship before now, but still. I'd like to have been with him longer than I was with Leo.

Bleh. That reminds me of the other day. A few days ago I was over at Tavo's house, and it was getting late, so we decided to leave back to my house to go play video games there. Plus, I have a curfew and he doesn't.

So we got a ride from his sister, and we decided to pick up Tavo's XBox 360 control from Leo's. So whatever, we went ahead and went to Leo's house.

DUDE.

I felt awkward. x.x I mean, I chose to get out of the car and go with Tavo, but that was because I felt awkward around his sister. But I felt pretty awkward when Leo commented on my hair (he noticed the new highlights) and hugged me. At the time, Tavo's back was turned because he was talking to someone else, and I was scared just to hug Leo back.

That, and I hadn't stepped foot in Leo's house since we were dating, and I felt really, really weird standing at his door (I felt too awkward to take more steps inside than I had to.)

Fortunately, we left fairly quickly, though, and got back to my house.

So yeah, not much to say. I miss Tavo, love him, and I can't wait to see him again.

Oh, and Rhianne and Levi are totally in love.

And it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside. :D

I Lurk Into Your Bodies

"Fill you up with enemies..."

[~Mezmer - Pinkly Smooth]

It's been like... forever... I never seem to update my blog, as much as I tell myself I should. It's not like I've been busy or anything, really. I've been hanging out with Tavo a lot lately, who thankfully doesn't even know I have a blog. I mean, I tell him everything, but I know he doesn't like putting our business out there, and I'm not sure if my last post would quealify.

I don't like putting my business out, either, anyways, but still. Sometimes there are things that I just need to express to the readers I don't have, and things that I need to tell to people that would never even see this blog anyways.

I don't think I have anything to say or anything, so I dunno.

The only news is that Tavo got a job, so I'm a lot more bored, and he's getting the plante's crappiest hours. >.<