With The Venomous Kiss You Gave Me I'm Killing Loneliness

"With the warmth of your arms you saved me.
Oh, I'm killing loneliness with you...
Killing loneliness that turned my heart into a tomb~"

[Killing Loneliness - HIM]

God, I never ever update this thing. It always just kinda slips past my mind. I always think I'm forgetting something, but then I just kinda shrug it off. Not only that, but I spent all my time with Tavo anyways, and so it' not like there's much to blog about. It'd get boring to say the same thing over and over and over.

I'm pretty upset today, since today's our third month (yesz, I'm that lame. Sue me), yet I can't even see him, even if just for a single minute. It's such a pain in the ass. He got yesterday off, but I couldn't see him, and he gets tomorrow off but I doubt I'd be able to see him, and yet he works today, on the day that matters.

His manager just lives to piss him off, huh?

So I'm pretty doan and upset, since I haven't seen him in a few days, and I'm so used to seeing him every single day. Not nly that, but his phone's disconnected, so I have to go forever without texting him or speaking to him at all, until he finally cals like at 11:30 at night or something. And then he has to go to bed a little early (early for us is like... 1.) because he has work the next day.

Look at me, I sound like a whiney teenager. But it's just that I'm so used to him, and so attatched that it's hars to go without him. Not only that, but in two months' time, he'll have been my longest relationship. Which doesn't say much since I've only had one relationship before now, but still. I'd like to have been with him longer than I was with Leo.

Bleh. That reminds me of the other day. A few days ago I was over at Tavo's house, and it was getting late, so we decided to leave back to my house to go play video games there. Plus, I have a curfew and he doesn't.

So we got a ride from his sister, and we decided to pick up Tavo's XBox 360 control from Leo's. So whatever, we went ahead and went to Leo's house.

DUDE.

I felt awkward. x.x I mean, I chose to get out of the car and go with Tavo, but that was because I felt awkward around his sister. But I felt pretty awkward when Leo commented on my hair (he noticed the new highlights) and hugged me. At the time, Tavo's back was turned because he was talking to someone else, and I was scared just to hug Leo back.

That, and I hadn't stepped foot in Leo's house since we were dating, and I felt really, really weird standing at his door (I felt too awkward to take more steps inside than I had to.)

Fortunately, we left fairly quickly, though, and got back to my house.

So yeah, not much to say. I miss Tavo, love him, and I can't wait to see him again.

Oh, and Rhianne and Levi are totally in love.

And it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside. :D